IM SOO SICK

Ugh! I cannot believe how bad I feel today! I have all this upper respiratory stuff going on. I breathe in, I wheeze. I breathe out, i wheeze. For those of you who don't know me I have a bad history of lung issues. Mostly just being sick. I had a real scare last spring, the doctors told me I had a form of COPD. I am way too young for that crap!!! Still I was diagnosed with Asthma. I have scar tissue in my lungs from all the times I have had pneumonia, brochitis or whatever crazy thing you can come up with. Even if I get a sinus infection it goes straight to the lungs! BAM I am hacking and wheezin! This time it's hitting me hard. I have a fever and I really can't breath. It just makes me think that I am totally going to get lung cancer. In my family history it's very likely and very possible. Two very important women in my life have had lung cancer. One of which my grandmother, my heart and soul. She fought a very hard battle at the age of 73. She had half of her lung removed and fought with everything she had until the day we all said see ya later. Right now my aunt whom I love very much and who has been there for me is in her second fight. Her first fight, she fought with literally everything she had. We all almost her 13 yrs ago. She had breast cancer and cancer in her lymphnodes. She conquered and prevailed. Then on Christmas in 2007 she was hit with the worst news ever. Again she has cancer. This time she is stage 4 and terminal. It has attacked her left lung and part of her ribs. Although she still fights she is losing her fight. She looks great everyday but I can never tell if she feels good or if she hurts or if she just keeps the faith and the hope. I love her dearly and can't stand to see her go through all this again. Without treatment she is holding her head high. Guess I got a little off track. But if I am going to just sit here and type away this is what you get. Complete and utter nonsense. So anyway I still feel horrible. still wheezing and scared to death that one day I am going to have lung cancer some time in my life. In a round about way you start to understand the reason I write the way I do! So have a good one and come back y'all!