EXCITED

You know when you are just having a really bad day, week, month or even year? Well let me tell ya, these past few weeks haven't been the greatest. We are in financial distress like every other person in United States. My husband and I seem to be fighting on a constant basis due to stress from cash crisis. It's summer time and we haven't been able to do hardly anything. My best friend had been here alot this summer and that has helped alot. She gives me encouragment and enlightenment. My mom and I have been fighting on and off and that is alot of stress in itself. My husband and I are getting ready to lose alot of materialistic things. I feel like we are stuck in a huge tornado and it won't spit us out. I am overweight and have been for a while now. I always think of that, at least every day. I try to do something about it all the time. I try to eat right, exercise, take my medicine like I am supposed to. Nothing seems to be working. Well I tell my husband not to think negatively that things always work out. Because they always seem to for us, one way or another. I think my positive thinking has finally started to rub off. Our financial crisis seems to be looking better and amazingly and shocking to me I have lost 22 pounds. I have no idea how. I guess it's the old saying from dieters. When you just stop trying so hard the weight will start to drop. I couldn't believe my eyes when I looked at the scale. I had to step off and step back on just to make sure it was reading right. Then I just kept giggling. I was so EXCITED!!!! I had to tell everyone that I had dropped that much weight. I hope to lose so much more. Just to think that a couple weeks ago everything was looking so grim. Even three days ago I was on the verge of a nervous break down. I am a recovering "cutter". I have not cut in over 4 years and 3 days ago I cut again. I guess you could say that is how bad I thought my life was getting that I had to go and mutilate a part of my body (my hand). My husband was scared, I was scared and neither one of us knew what to do next. Now just 3 days later, with help from friends just listening and family just caring and my positive attitude and the support of my husband I think that we are going to conquer this to. Onward and forward with life one day at a time. Thank you all!